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I had the sweetest tender mercy…

I have been on the edge of melt down through Christmas and the days after. I have pushed and pushed my emotions and feelings down to keep them in check, but the other day, I just couldn’t do it anymore. I lost it…Don was wondering what in the world! (This is not like me at). Anyway, so many things on the “get the house ready for sale” to do list, mission paper work…it was just building up and I exploded. Problem number one…I really love this house, I really really do. I love the feeling of it, l love it when the kids come and I know the kids love it. I am struggling with letting it go, so there’s that! Then add the whole mission thing, which by the way, we have talked about our whole married life…it is that “someday”. Well, someday is happening and in reality, I don’t know if I am ready for that. Do you feel the reason for my bubbling eruption. It just feels like so much and so fast, I am so out of control of my life and it brings on panic.

After a good long cry and a 2 hour nap, I felt better able to cope…

The next morning at the gym, I listened to a talk by Anthony Sweat from a Time Out For Woman…It was called, Patterns for His Presence. Let me explain the tender mercy part…He read the few short verses Matt 19:16-22

16 ¶ And, behold, one came and said unto him, Good Master, what good thing shall I do, that I may have eternal life?

17 And he said unto him, Why callest thou me good? there is none good but one, that is, God: but if thou wilt enter into life, keep the commandments.

18 He saith unto him, Which? Jesus said, Thou shalt do no murder, Thou shalt not commit adultery, Thou shalt not steal, Thou shalt not bear false witness,

19 Honour thy father and thy mother: and, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.

20 The young man saith unto him, All these things have I kept from my youth up: what lack I yet?

21 Jesus said unto him, If thou wilt be perfect, go and sell that thou hast, and give to the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come and follow me.

22 But when the young man heard that saying, he went away sorrowful: for he had great

possessions.

These are the insights:

This young man came seeking…What lack I yet? I don’t know if you have ever prayed that before, but its scary because you don’t know what might become of that. I have been praying that for at least two weeks with nothing but silence to follow the question…surely there is something!!!!

Then Jesus said to this young man, “Go and sell that thou hast” and this young man went away sorrowful, for he had great possessions.

The lesson from the Holy Ghost to Becky Corbett was YOU ARE THIS YOUNG MAN. You have lived the gospel your whole life and have been obedient. Now you are needing to sacrifice some things ie. my house that I love with all my heart, moving away from my children and my life as I now it. You are struggling to let go of something that are Gods from the beginning anyway. (Doctrine and Covenants 104:14-15)

14. I, the Lord, stretched out the heavens, and built the earth, my very handiwork; and all things therein are mine.

15 And it is my purpose to provide for my saints, for all things are mine.

You have only been the steward and now you need to give it back. You aren’t willingly giving it up. Then came more lesson, once you have been obedient and have willingly sacrificed, you consecrate , dedicate it to the Lord. Can you do that Becky?

I knew that the Savior was aware of me in that moment and was teaching me in the sweetest and most loving way…My answer was and is, “Yes Lord, I will be obedient and sacrifice all that I have and give it to thee”. Whatever that looks like, I am all in.

I can’t pretend that there won’t be moments of doubt and questions, but I have this experience to keep going over to remind me that I can do hard things.

What is it about Mountains?

Favorite shots_20171030_IMG_1886Matthew 5:1 ….”and seeing the multitudes, he went up into a mountain and when he was set, his disciples came unto him…”

This sermon was/is meant only for those who were willing to ascend to it.

The first lesson of the Sermon on the Mount is the realization that a true disciple must go to the Lord to receive the message.

It is the choice of each individual. A journey. One has to come unto Christ to receive the lesson needed for the journey toward discipleship, the outline for who he or she might become.

Once we physically move to Christ then we can spiritually come to Christ by applying the beatitudes.

Another thought…

…moving to Christ  may mean that we have to give something up, leave things/persons behind, remove ourselves from something (fleeing).  What is it that holds us back from coming to Christ?

In the Book of Mormon Mosiah 18:1….”And now, it came to pass that Alma, who had fled from the servants of King Noah, repented of his sins and iniquities, and went about privately among the people, and began to teach the words of Abinadi–

In that moment that Alma fled, everything changed for him.  The course of his life changes forever.  He was ready and willing to ascend and come unto Christ.

Who else has FLED or ASCENDED the mountain to Come unto Christ….

Moses:   Exodus 3;1,  Exodus 4:27 and Exodus 24:12-13 …And the Lord said unto Moses, Come up to me… don’t you just love that, it is a special invitation to Moses and I believe it is extended to each of us…”come up to me…”

The Brother of Jared:   Ether 3:1 carried the stones he had molten out of a rock to the mount of the Lord

One of my favorites...I Nephi 11:1 & I Nephi 17:7

Nephi was caught away in an exceeding high mountain to see a vision , then instructed to “arise, and get thee into the mountain.  I ponder on those words and wonder, do I watch for and prepare for high mountain experiences??  (That will be a study to come!)

There are many examples in the scriptures of the journey that others went through to Come unto Christ.  The one thing that I do know, is that it is not a destination, it’s the direction we are moving.

Time and time again the scriptures tell us that Christ himself, went up into the mountain…where is your mountain?  Where is that holy space where you turn to Him?

 

 

 

To go to Jesus…

Faith
I was reading Matthew  14, particularly verses 25-30. This is where Christ had been teaching the multitudes and fed the 5000. He left the crowds and went up to the mountain to pray. Meanwhile, his disciples got into their boat and pushed out on the sea of Galilee. A storm arose and the disciples became concerned and afraid. Jesus watching from afar went to them, walking on the water. Peter, finding out it was Jesus walking on the water toward them said, “Lord, if it be thou, bid me come unto thee on the water”. Jesus said simply “come”. The last four words of verse 29 is “to go to Jesus”. These four words cause me reflection…To Go To Jesus…how do I go to Jesus? What does that look like and am I doing it every day?  What is distracting me from coming to Jesus?  The noise of every day is loud in my ears, pulling and tugging for my attention, taking away my focus.  I find that I must be intentional, purposeful and determined in my pursuit to go to Jesus.  His invitation is clear and is repeated numerous times, “come unto me”                   Incline your ear, and come unto me, Isa. 55:3.
Come unto me, all ye that labor, Matt. 11:28.
Suffer little children to come unto me, Matt. 19:14.
If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, Luke 9:23.
He that cometh to me shall never hunger, John 6:35.
Christ invites all to come unto him, 2 Ne. 26:33.
Come unto me and be saved, 3 Ne. 12:20.
Come unto Christ, Moro. 10:32.
Invite all to come unto Christ, D&C 20:59.
Come unto me, and your souls shall live, D&C 45:46.

I wish I had the courage to….

Today on the Today Show they had a woman who travels the country with a huge chalkboard titled…”I wish I had the courage to…” and then you fill in the blank.  I thought to myself “what would I write if I stood in front of that board?”…right off the bat, I had a hard time being honest with myself, so I guess the first thing I would say…

I wish I had the courage to be honest with myself
then, I wondered what else??
Here goes…
 
I wish I had the courage to go back to school
I wish I had the courage to be adventuresome
I wish I had the courage to do things by myself
I wish I had the courage to write a book
I wish I had the courage to be a little more independent 
I wish I had the courage to try and fail, but at least try


 

 

My Missionary

 

Elder Corbett…doesn’t that sound AWESOME!!!! The people of Guatemala are going to love this kid!!!  I will miss him terribly, but know that the next two years will change his life for good.  I’ve been working with Hillary on a number of “projects” to send with him….I just finished these today.  Fourteen shirts, fourteen different quotes, scriptures or words of wisdom.  I am happy with the way they turned out, I hope they are a nice reminder of my love for him every P-day as he irons his shirts.

 

 

 

 

I am assuming that the bottom button of the shirt is completely tucked in…am I assuming too much??

Savior, Redeemer of my soul

I am moved…

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Savior, Redeemer of my soul,
Whose mighty hand hath made me whole,
Whose wondrous pow’r hath raised me up
And filled with sweet my bitter cup!
What tongue my gratitude can tell,
O gracious God of Israel.

Never can I repay thee, Lord,
But I can love thee. Thy pure word,
Hath it not been my one delight,
My joy by day, my dream by night?
Then let my lips proclaim it still,
And all my life reflect thy will.

Choir:
O’errule mine acts to serve thine ends.
Change frowning foes to smiling friends.

Chasten my soul till I shall be
In perfect harmony with thee.
Make me more worthy of thy love,
And fit me for the life above

2 Nephi 27…great lesson material

 



This is the last chapter that Nephi quotes Isaiah… Imagine how Nephi must have felt knowing that Isaiah was talking about the very plates he was writing on and that those who have “slumbered”…was him (Nephi and his family)!  Wrap your mind about that! 
       

 And it shall come to pass that the Lord God shall bring forth unto ayou the words of a book, (the book of Mormon) and they shall be the words of them which have slumbered. (people that have passed away like Nephi, Mormon, Moroni etc.)
 And behold the book shall be asealed; and in the book shall be abrevelation from God, from the beginning of the world to thecending thereof.
I wonder if the “sealed” part of those plates will ever be revealed to us…perhaps during the Millennium??
 
Verse 9…
 But the book shall be delivered unto a man, (Joseph Smith)  and he shall deliver the words of the book, which are the words of those who have slumbered in the dust, and he (Martin Harris) shall deliver these words untoaanother; (Professor Charles Anthon) JSH 1:63-65
 15 But behold, it shall come to pass that the Lord God shall say unto him to whom he shall deliver the book: Take these words which are not sealed and deliver them to another, that he may show them unto the learned, saying: aRead this, I pray thee. And the learned shall say: Bring hither the book, and I will read them.
 19 Wherefore it shall come to pass, that the Lord God will deliver again the book and the words thereof to him that is not learned; and the man that is not learned shall say: I am not learned.
12 Witnesses…
Isaiah gives specific detail about the coming forth of the Book of Mormon and tells us about the Three Witnesses.
12 Wherefore, at that day when the book shall be delivered unto the man of whom I have spoken, the book shall be hid from the eyes of the world, that the eyes of none shall behold it save it be that three bwitnesses shall behold it, by the power of God, besides him to whom the book shall be delivered; and they shall testify to the truth of the book and the things therein.
 
Oliver Cowdery, David Whitmer & Martin Harris
Their testimonies are in the beginning of the Book of Mormon
13 And there is anon other which shall view it, save it be a few according to the will of God, to bear testimony of his word unto the children of men; for the Lord God hath said that the words of the faithful should speak as if it were bfrom the dead.
The Eight Witness
The 8 witnesses were:  Christian Whitmer, Jacob Whitmer, Peter Whitmer Jr, John Whitmer, Hiram Page, Joseph Smith Sr, Hyrum Smith, Samuel H. Smith.Testimonies also found at the beginning of the Book of Mormon
 
 14 Wherefore, the Lord God will proceed to bring forth the words of the book; and in the mouth of as many witnesses (you, me, missionaries…how are we doing?) as seemeth him good will he establish his word; and wo be unto him thatarejecteth the word of God!
 
Verses 20-22 go with this quote I think…
 20 Then shall the Lord God say unto him: The learned shall not read them, for they have rejected them, and I am aable to do mine own work; wherefore thou shalt read the words which I shall give unto thee.
 21 aTouch not the things which are sealed, for I will bring them forth in mine own due time; for I will show unto the children of men that I am able to do mine own work.
 22 Wherefore, when thou hast read the words which I have commanded thee, and obtained the awitnesses which I have promised unto thee, then shalt thou seal up the book again, and hide it up unto me, that I may preserve the words which thou hast not read, until I shall see fit in mine own bwisdom to creveal all things unto the children of men.2 Nephi 27:10–11. “For the book shall be sealed”
Elder Neal A. Maxwell of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles spoke of scriptures yet to be revealed:
“Many more scriptural writings will yet come to us, including those of Enoch (see D&C 107:57), all of the writings of the Apostle John (see Ether 4:16), the records of the lost tribes of Israel (see 2 Nephi 29:13), and the approximately two-thirds of the Book of Mormonplates that were sealed: ‘And the day cometh that the words of the book which were sealed shall be read upon the house tops; and they shall be read by the power of Christ; and all things shall be revealed unto the children of men which ever have been among the children of men, and which ever will be even unto the end of the earth’ (2 Nephi 27:11). Today we carry convenient quadruple combinations of the scriptures, but one day, since more scriptures are coming, we may need to pull little red wagons brimful with books” (A Wonderful Flood of Light [1990], 18).
The story is told by Brigham Young Vol. 19 in the Journal of Discourses pg 38…
  “Oliver Cowdery went with the Prophet Joseph when he deposited these plates.  Joseph did not translate all of the plates; there was a portion of them sealed, which you can learn from the Book of Doctrine and Covenants.  When Joseph got the plates, the angel instructed him to carry them back to the hill Cumorah, which he did.   Oliver says that when Joseph and Oliver went there, the hill opened, and they walked into a cave, in which there was a large and spacious room.  He says he did not think, at the time, whether they had the light of the sun or artificial light; but that it was jet as light as day.”
“They laid the plates on a table; it was a large table that stood in the room.  Under this table there was a pile of plates as much as two feet high, and there were altogether in this room more plates than probably many wagon loads; they were piled up in the corners and along the walls.  The first time they went there the sword of Laban hung upon the wall; but when they went again it had been taken down and laid upon the table across the gold plates; it was unsheathed, and on it was written these words: ‘this sword will never be sheathed again until the kingdoms of this world become the kingdom of our God and his Christ.’
12 Witnesses…???
but 3 + 8 = 11
This is where you play a part in the Book of Mormon!

General Conference…I BELIEVE

 

 

So Andrew really knocked it out of the ball park when he worked it out and got us tickets to attend General Conference.  He got tickets to the Priesthood session and then the Sunday morning session.  Haylie had come down to hang with us, but was going to hook up with friends and get in the standby line with hopes of getting in to conference.  While eating breakfast her friend texted and said they wouldn’t make it up to Salt Lake in time to get in…immediately Don said, “Haylie have you ever been to conference?” she said “no” and he told her to take his ticket, that he had gone last night to Priesthood so she should take his ticket.  He started crying I’m sure with the thoughts that she would have a wonderful experience.  I started laughing at him in the most loving way or course…he has such a tender and soft heart!!  When I kissed him goodbye at the airport I called him a cry baby, but let him know I wouldn’t want him any other way!! We did have a wonderful experience!!  Thanks dad and Andrew!!

Education Week -BYU

A favorite summer tradition

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Education Week is the best shot in the arm…a spiritual feast indeed!!  This event is the best thing Cyndy and I do all year!  Our favorite teacher is Anthony Sweat for sure.  This year we took two of his classes, they were back to back, the first began at 8:30 and was all about being a teacher of the gospel…it was AWESOME!! The next class was amazing as well, it was all on the ATONEMENT…each day was on how different aspects of the atonement affect our lives each day…sooooo good!

Summer Study

I am trying desperately to finish the Book of Mormon before August 15th!  I read at the gym while I am on the stair climber, sometimes I hit the audio button and listen while I walk on the treadmil and then I read more before I close my eyes at the end of the day.  I feel like I have to finish it before I can start studying any lesson material…I know there is no rhyme or reason, but its just what I want to do.  Today I am in Helaman 14…that’s more than half way right??

The greatest app…aids me greatly in finishing the Book of Mormon


I have been reading the most amazing book too…Please Pass the Scriptures…its just AMAZING!!  My focus, I have decided this year, is to learn how to “liken the scriptures” unto my life and that of my students.  This book has really opened the door for me to learn how to do this.

I love my calling as seminary teacher, I love love love having to study.  I am super excited to finish my last year teaching the Book of Mormon!  I literally feel the power in this book and I know beyond any doubt that this book is the word of God, that it was written for our day.  The spirit bears this witness to me every day I read!  My hope is that each of my students will feel this by the end of the seminary year too!

DONE!!